Five Question Friday... 11/30/12

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1. What do you give teachers for gifts?
This year, I'm stumped/torn, both kids are in middle school... when do you stop? I didn't do anything for Leighanna's teachers last year because she was in middle school, but part of me feels that I need to "take care of" Justin's teachers so that they will "take care of" him. Does that make sense?


 What to do? What to do?
2. Do you text? One finger texter or total pro?
Dude! Total pro!!!... and then I watch Leighanna text and realize I am way out of touch with reality.

3. Do you give back during the holidays? If so, in what way/which is your favorite charity?
This year we are helping out a co-worker who is sick. She is a single mom with 3 kids and had to go on FMLA; so the department "adopted" the family for Christmas. Please say a prayer for her and her kiddos.

4. If you would've been the sole winner of the 575+ million dollar Powerball jackpot, what would you have done with all that money?
D-mama party!!!! I would even give stripper shoes away as party favors... cuz that's how I roll.


5. Will you please take just a moment to spread the word and pray about my friend's missing family members? There still is no news, and I can't imagine their pain and worry. Facebook prayer page: Prayers for Trista, Shy and Matt
Prayers all around on this last day of November. We may not always realize it, but we have a whole lot to be thankful for.

Happy Friday!!



This one hurt my heart...

I was just calming my battered emotions following a "tiff" with Anthony. He doesn't feel I should email a teacher concerning an assignment Justin was penalized for turning in late. The day he was suppose to "write the assignment in his agenda" his BG was 48. The work was turned in the next day, yet this "penalization" dropped his grade from a 100% to a 60%. Kinda harsh, I thought.


We had been fighting lows that entire week following changes the Endo had made. No matter what we did... we couldn't get him above of the 50's; this went on for over a week. Even after breaking the 3 day rule and making daily changes. The teacher even commented about sending him to the nurse all that week. 
Plus there's the weather... Justin's insulin needs change with the weather(I swear I'm not making this up). This is the downside to living in Florida... hot, cold, hot, cold, hot, cold; adjust, adjust, adjust... we cant make up our weather-lovin minds.


Anywho... we were "tiff-ing" (I might have made that word up) about it. In our 504 meeting... I mentioned Justin needing help with writing assignment in his agenda; for several reason, but Especially when D is acting up. We have this accommodation, SO WHY SHOULDN'T I EMAIL HER????

He was 48, "when he's low... his seizures increase". I've TOLD them this. Seizures mean he to looses time, doesn't hear whats being said. We have accommodations for this, SO WHY SHOULDN'T I EMAIL HER????

Anthony feels he needs to be more responsible, but is letting him fail, literally fail, going to teach him any sort of lesson? At 11 years old... should HE be responsible for going to the teachers and saying "ya know, I was a little low yesterday, I need more time." Would they even listen?  Doesn't he DEAL with enough??

Wait, I'm off on a tangent; back to the beginning...
So I was just calming my battered emotions following this "tiff". My first call returning to work was an emergency room admit for an 8 year old boy(just 1 year older than Justin was at dx). Guess why he was admitted... newly diagnosed T1D. My heart dropped. My eyes then filled with tears as the thoughts of challenges this family will face ran through my mind...

Every email that will have to be sent.
Every "tiff" about what should or shouldn't be done.
Every decision about what is right and what is wrong.
Every "adjustment" made.
Every night time number that you pray will not drop to low.
Every fight for accommodations and/or safety.
Every day of sadness.

Every bit of it tore through my heart for this family as I choked on every broken word I spoke.


I know the bigger issue here was the fact that I had to defend my sending the email with someone who is suppose to support me. Someone who is suppose to support Justin. If something happens to me... is Justin left to fail? Why do I even have to worry and think about that possibility? The thought scares me.

I know Justin will have to take responsibility one day... I struggle with the "when" in that every day. Right now, however, I feel that I would be setting him up to fail. Can he handle failure emotionally? I can't honestly say I believe he can... he bottles everything up as it is.

So what do I do? SOMEBODY, PLEASE tell me. 

Halloween 2012...

OY! Its Halloween... I've never been a huge Halloween fan. Its okay, I guess, I could take it or leave it(mostly leave it). Of course my kids view it as dressing up to haul in loads and loads of candy. I veiw it as a big ol waist of money to take your kids out among the crowded mess of crazies, in order to gather a sack of cheep shit that I will slowly throw away without them even noticing. To each their own.

This year, Halloween has me a little more on edge; and it has nothng to do with the 11 year old diabetic gathering sugary candy... I'm cool with that. The bigger issue is that I have a sweet, trusting (but responsible) 13 year old that wants to trick or treat in the neighborhood with her friends. As in... without a responsible adult (insert heart attack here).

I am not on board with this plan at all, and was totally counting on the hubs to be even less on board. So you can totally imagine my jaw hitting the floored when, out of the blue, he asked HER if she was going trick or treating with her friends this year. WHA??? How dare him mess up my "it ain't happening cuz ur dads gonna say no way" back up plan!

I was totally calling him unpleasant names in my head.

Look... I get it, I do! I went out by myself at her age(maybe even younger); and to be honest... she is probably more responsible then I was(am?), but things were just different. Its not her I don't trust.

So... since dad threw off my "mean mom routine" by being okay with it; I guess we will see how she does. Dag-nab-it!!

If this is my last post for a while... they probably had to commit me. Just sayin!

Hope you all have a safe and happy Halloween.

 

Off to the Endo...

Today was the day. The day I had to face the music after weeks and weeks of the highest numbers I've ever seen. More Ketones than I've ever seen in a three month period. Several nights of 400's that wouldn't budge. Basal changed. Ratios changed. Factors... changed.

Still...

So as I expected his A1C went up to 7.2 (from 6.7). Not the highest its ever been, but higher than where we like. Deep down I feel like I could have/should have done more. I tried, but I should have tried harder... sooner. I just couldn't wrap my brain around it. I was almost too tired to fix it.

Maybe that's a  hazard of all these sleepless nights... brain drain. If there is such a thing, I have it... and its messin me all up.

My apologies...tonight's planned post could not win out over sheer exhaustion. So instead, I will have to leave you with this...

O_o

I have a confession...
Had Justin not come out here and woke me up from my Passed out drool-y slumber, I would have totally missed day 27 of NaBloPoMo. That would have devastated me this close to the end. So now that I've confessed, supplied a juicy juice, started a temp basal, set my alarm to check him in an hour(and used the facilities), I'm off to bed again.

Peace out peeps!

TGIF...

Day 26 of NaBloPoMo

Thirteen!

Time. Where does it go?

This week Leighanna turned thirteen. My 4lb baby girl... a teenager. OY! I'm not really feeling that age much, ya know?!?! Or this teen attitude for that matter.

Anywho.... I have NO IDEA what to get her. NOT ONE! Okay, I have already picked up some clothes so I guess I did have one idea, but you know what I mean. Now, before you say "ask her", I did. Didn't get me anywhere. I thought about getting her an iphone because she is asking for a smart phone and if I'm going to get one I want to be able to send her emojicons(all about the emojicons) and most of her friends have them. She wouldn't get the 5 or anything, Verizon is offering the 4 for free. Of course we have to add in the data package. My issue with that is they break so darn easy and its so expensive to fix them. I'm not sure if she's responsible enough to take care of it. After all, she's is on her second ipod touch; and the screen was broken within like 2 days of her getting it. To trust or not to trust?? Then I was looking into a really cool Viola. Right now we rent one and it seems as if she is going to stick with it. But she is still growing, so I don't know if getting one now would be smart.

Past that... I have nothing and her party is THIS SUNDAY!!!

HELP ME PLEASE!!!! I NEED IDEAS!!! 

She loves to cook

She loves to dance and sing

She Loves all things nail polish

She's a prissy girly girl

And to help you think I will share a few of my favorite photos. I was looking at them today... *sniff sniff*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISSY!!

Why 4 was tough...

We just passed Justin's 4 year Di-aversary  and I have to say... this one was a little tough. If you've been around a while, you know we don't "celebrate" Justin's DX anniversaries. This is a choice I made because he was diagnosed just two days before Leighanna's birthday; and I honestly feel that she has to stand in the shadows of D way to much as it is. This year she turned 13... (THIRTEEN!!) and damnit, she needs attention too.

Justin started the morning of his di-aversary with the 1st of several vomiting episodes after a long night of high bg's, I was tired. I had shit to do. And my vomiting son had high Ketones. As I sat at the kitchen table, looking at a sweet 11 year old boy, who felt a kind of sickness that I will never truly know, I couldn't help but go back to that place I was a few years ago. I was sad and mad and I wanted to scream. I think it was the day. On THAT day, diabetes should behave. THAT day is a day to have dessert, just because, and be thankful we are lucky enough to be here. THAT day is a day to say F YOU diabetes... I made it through another year, but instead, diabetes showed us.

And that just pisses me off!

Day 24, NaBloPoMo

Random Questions...

I came across these ransom questions a while back and thought it would be fun...

What body part do you wash first? 
My... , no, wait, I was my arms first; up one arm, across the body and down the other. 


What's the strangest talent you have?
I can lay tile and patch holes in dry wall


 Do you parallel park or drive around the block? 
Oh! I can back it up like a Tonka truck, but I will drive around the block in search of some princess parking first 



Have you ever had two dates in one night? 
Would it be bad if I said yes?




Have you ever been to a gay bar? 
Yep! Gay bars are the best!!



Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? 
Umm no...



Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep? 
Justin and what time I have to get back up.




Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable? 
No, but I am not sure they would say the same about me   




When is the last time you played the air guitar? 
Yesterday... but I prefer air drums




Have you ever bitten your toenails? 
NO! Even if I could be all bendy enough to get them in my mouth




Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others.
Run around without a bra 





How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? 
Honestly, I'm not the "get drunk" type. Does that surprise you? If the drinks are stiff... I will start feeling it after about 3, but it will take a couple                                                            more to get me drunk, I think.  




Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?
Not that I recall  




How often do you clean out your ears?
I clean them after every shower. Habit. 





About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
I occasionally have to "adjust", but I don't think I've counted. Does that mean I do it so much I loose count? 





What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar? 
HAHAHA; let's not talk about that.





What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Something cold and wet.




How late did you stay up last night and why?
3 am... because I was on a PowerPoint 





Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m.: who do you want it to be?
Helloooo Mark Wahlberg... or Ryan Renolds... or... were we suppose to pick JUST one?




Do you think too much or too little?
Too much... WAY too much.




Where are your feet right now?
Criss Cross Apple Sauce, baby!! But I have to cut that out because it kinda kills my old lady knees.

From of the Mouth of yours truly...

-"Do you want some help with that or would you prefer to sit there and cuss about it a little longer?"

-"I prefer to talk to people on the phone; you can't make faces at people when they're standing in front of you".

-"You don't give me chills, your getting on my nerves and it's making me twitch".


-"That's kickin it back 80's style when we use to lay down on the bed to button our jeans".

-"You just use me to dispose of your pickle".


-"What, you a little out of touch with women's undergarment's?!?!"

-"Those six beers are kind of suckin ass right now, aren't they?"

Happy Di-aversary...

Today marks the 4th anniversary of living with Type 1 Diabetes for two special boys. Justin and Justice were diagnosed on the exact same day. I hope you enjoy this little video we put together...

My wish for you both is that you never let D steal away your happiness and that you continue to kick D's ass, everyday, until there is a cure.

Put on your Pink Bra

I signed up for the "Put on your Pink Bra" walk this morning with some of my co-workers. Justin took one for the team and tagged along with me so that I didn't have to ride out there alone. He really can be sweet... sometimes. 

I snapped a quick picture of us as we started out(okay, I tried, but Mr.  I.can't look.at.the.camera messed me all up). 50% photo participation counts, right?

I snapped the above mentioned picture early because after about 15 minutes in the Florida heat (yes, even in October) is brutal and we end up a hot mess... literally. The walk was the typical 5k (3ish miles); we started out about 147... had a banana(partial bolus), skittle x 2(no bolus) and a Juicy Juice(no bolus) and ended with a sweet 113. I really should have skipped that partial bolus. 

Because my sweet brat went with me, I treated him to some Olive Garden where we both sucked down diet coke like we just walked 3 miles in the heat or something. Oh, yeah... we did!

Today was a great day... sweet one on one time with my sweetest boy. 

Oh Friday...

I had big plans today. Lots to do!!! The kids were off school for the day so I decided to take a half a day off   so we could start shopping for Halloween costumes and a pink bra for my "Put on your Pink Bra" walk tomorrow.

Justin had different plans...

Thursday afternoon he decides to fall backwards, while playing square soccer, and hurts his wrist. I watched him "baby" it, if you will, that whole night and then still complain about it today. So instead of hitting the stores we started out at the doctor where we have been "immobilized" for the next two weeks. I really think he's trying to push me over the edge.

Justin and I... waiting on the doc.

NaBloPoMo... Day18

Am I done yet? Um... No!

Since there is no school tomorrow- day18 of NaBloPoMo is brought to you by family time. 

It's movie night in da howzeeee. 

Tonight's feature is family time with a side of Madagascar 3.

If you need something to read in the meantime... Just scroll down. 

Happy Thursday!!