We all know how much a diagnosis changes our lives. If you're anything like me, your whole world became about just trying to function or maybe just trying to not screw up. Since I wasn't on top of things like I always had been, something had to give... that something included me.
In a little more than a month (10/21), we will have lived with diabetes for 5 years. 5 years ago, I lost it. I lost myself and my ability to give a crap about my health. Then just when I felt like I had this... another diagnosis came along and pushed me back a bit. Then, recently, I made a plan with a group of girls at work to sign up for a 5k mud run in February. I thought... I can do this. 5k... no problem.
Only, there is now a new diagnosis hanging over our heads and its kind of kicking my butt, just a little.
On August 19th Justin went for an x-ray and on August 21st, I got a call from the Doctor... Justin has Scoliosis.
This is the first time I am sharing the news. I haven't had the heart to even tell him. How can I? He has so much on his plate already and whats the point until we have to do something about it; which may be sooner rather than later since he is still complaining about his back hurting.
I'll be honest, my first thought was to stick my head back in the hole its spent so much time in the past 5 years, but I need to cut that out. I need to get my shit together and start taking care of myself so that I can face this new challenge... whatever that turns out to be.
SOOOO... I am going to do that mud run in February. For me. To help get my head straight and keep it out of that hole.
It just so happens that the super awesome Hallie over at The Princess and the Pump has started a new challenge, called "Destination Me". My destination may start off with a little different motivation, but on my way to "me", I'm going to rock that mud run.
Stop by Hallie's post HERE to learn a little more about what she's doing and why. THEN sign up to join her on this journey.
In a little more than a month (10/21), we will have lived with diabetes for 5 years. 5 years ago, I lost it. I lost myself and my ability to give a crap about my health. Then just when I felt like I had this... another diagnosis came along and pushed me back a bit. Then, recently, I made a plan with a group of girls at work to sign up for a 5k mud run in February. I thought... I can do this. 5k... no problem.
Only, there is now a new diagnosis hanging over our heads and its kind of kicking my butt, just a little.
On August 19th Justin went for an x-ray and on August 21st, I got a call from the Doctor... Justin has Scoliosis.
This is the first time I am sharing the news. I haven't had the heart to even tell him. How can I? He has so much on his plate already and whats the point until we have to do something about it; which may be sooner rather than later since he is still complaining about his back hurting.
I'll be honest, my first thought was to stick my head back in the hole its spent so much time in the past 5 years, but I need to cut that out. I need to get my shit together and start taking care of myself so that I can face this new challenge... whatever that turns out to be.
SOOOO... I am going to do that mud run in February. For me. To help get my head straight and keep it out of that hole.
It just so happens that the super awesome Hallie over at The Princess and the Pump has started a new challenge, called "Destination Me". My destination may start off with a little different motivation, but on my way to "me", I'm going to rock that mud run.
Stop by Hallie's post HERE to learn a little more about what she's doing and why. THEN sign up to join her on this journey.
5 comments:
I love you. I love Justin. I HATE that you have so much to deal with. But I do know with certainty that if anyone can rock it, it's the two of you! I'm so glad you're joining me on this journey!! Mud Run- get ready!!!
Woo Hoo Lora!! You are gonna rock that Mud run!! Training for it will give you the energy needed to deal with a second diagnosis and tackle it!! Can't wait to hear of your progress and know I am cheering you on!! Go LORA go!!
I have not read Hallie's post.
On purpose.
Because I know it will force me to examine ME and how I'm taking care of myself, and just thinking about that makes me want to throw up.
But I'm proud of you for making a goal. Goals are HUGE! And a step in a positive direction, always.
My heart aches with this new diagnosis. Obviously, it isn't fair or right. Obviously, life isn't meant to be because it seems myself and my friends are being bombarded every day with challenges. I guess it's all about rising above them. One doctor appointment at a time. One blog post at a time. One goal at a time. One friend telling you they love you at a time.
Here's to kicking another diagnoses ass! Love you, friend!
And if you haven't heard this lately: YOU CAN DO THIS! (And so can Justin. He's a rockstar.)
Oh YEAH...I cannot WAIT to hear/read about you.mud.5K. There had better be pics Mama!!!
And. Onto J and his new dx. I am sorry. No words really. He has had his fill of dx. xo
LOVE MUD RUNS! I am with you about all this diagnosis crap...it is crap! I am sorry, no maybe a little angry, about all that is dealt out to your son. It is cruddy. I know you are a strong family, but man it can get tiring and rough being so tough all the time, so on that note I hope that you find a sense of release through training and doing the run. As I told my MIL whom was recently diagnosed (at 68) with celiac and has been excruciating pain because she didn't want to burden others with the new diet - YOU ARE WORTH IT! You are worth the extra effort, the planning, the time, the cute clothes, the fun snacks, whatever it takes - you are worth it!
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