It was my night off. I don't get them often... Maybe once every other week or so. The reason behind that is an entire blog post in itself, so I'll save it for later. Justin tested his BG before bed and he was 189, a tad high, but he had about .40u still on board from the strawberry dessert he had at his Nonie's house; so I let him go and told the hubby to set his alarm for 1:30. By all rights, this IOB should have landed him right above 150.
In the night, sometime after 3am (it was actually 3:45am I found later) I feel the hubby jump out of bed. This can only mean he slept through his alarm. Thankfully, so we thought, Justin was sittin pretty with a BG of 145.
The next morning Justin drops the bomb...
"Before I fell asleep last night, I checked my blood and it was 49. I had some Skittles and a Hershey Nugget."
Silence(insert birds tweeting and my heart breaking into 1000 pieces)...
"Thank you for taking care of that, buddy, what time was it?"...
"I don't know", he says.
Looking back in the meter logbook it was a few minutes after midnight.
I don't think about the "what ifs" that much anymore. 5 1/2 years into this T1 journey, we just roll with whatever is thrown our way, but ever since that... I'm scared all over again.
Part of me is extremely mad that Anthony slept through that alarm. Angry that I can't even take one night off without worry. ONE! The thoughts of what if Justin didn't handle it on his own won't leave me... what if... what would he have found at 3:45?
I am so thankful Justin has started taking control and I am proud that he knows how to handle his care. But all I could do, besides praise him for a job well done (he was sitting pretty at 145 after all) and thank him for letting me know what happened, was remind him that no matter what time it is... he can come get me so that I can check him again to make sure he's safe.
I could not imagine the alternative. Praying all of out sweet children sleep safe.
In the night, sometime after 3am (it was actually 3:45am I found later) I feel the hubby jump out of bed. This can only mean he slept through his alarm. Thankfully, so we thought, Justin was sittin pretty with a BG of 145.
The next morning Justin drops the bomb...
"Before I fell asleep last night, I checked my blood and it was 49. I had some Skittles and a Hershey Nugget."
Silence(insert birds tweeting and my heart breaking into 1000 pieces)...
"Thank you for taking care of that, buddy, what time was it?"...
"I don't know", he says.
Looking back in the meter logbook it was a few minutes after midnight.
I don't think about the "what ifs" that much anymore. 5 1/2 years into this T1 journey, we just roll with whatever is thrown our way, but ever since that... I'm scared all over again.
Part of me is extremely mad that Anthony slept through that alarm. Angry that I can't even take one night off without worry. ONE! The thoughts of what if Justin didn't handle it on his own won't leave me... what if... what would he have found at 3:45?
I am so thankful Justin has started taking control and I am proud that he knows how to handle his care. But all I could do, besides praise him for a job well done (he was sitting pretty at 145 after all) and thank him for letting me know what happened, was remind him that no matter what time it is... he can come get me so that I can check him again to make sure he's safe.
I could not imagine the alternative. Praying all of out sweet children sleep safe.
4 comments:
I really relate to this, thanks for posting!
That sounds so stressful. I do know though that at some point I will need to be able to know that Isaac will want to take over his checks even at night...I have no idea when or how that will occur, but I do know that TJ (my T1d husband) has, since High School, woken up througout the night on his own when his BG felt off either too high or low, there must be something that occurs in those that feel their lows that makes them wake up. I can not fathom this right now with Isaac as I am sure you are still floored at how it all worked perfectly for Justin. We've had issues lately with TJ or I sleeping through alarms lately, too - that worry of missing the important check is so scary. I keep wondering if I can pay somebody to call me (like a wake up call from a hotel lobby) until I respond verbally as I think I am turning off alarms in my sleep. Anyhow...I am glad Justin is fine. And you got a day off. Now to find some louder alarms for all d parents!
Been having a lot of the "what ifs" here too. So glad to hear that Justin was safe and praying he continues to handle his care with you at arms reach as needed. xoxo
So scary... But I'm glad he knew what to do and handled it like the super star he is!
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